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| the backstabbing continues. the treachery. deceit. it's eating me like poison. i realize that when one is stressed/angry/worried or whatever negative emotion, they are releasing toxins into their body. becasue of all the angst i have been experiencing, i caught the flu. which made me more mad. it's a dog-eat-dog world out there. next month i will be happy. my time has come. my time has freaking come. | | |
| i hate facebook. there i said it. i'm going to use xanga for a bit. ok, it's not facebook. it's the absolute back-stabbing douchebags that i know who throw you under the bus to make themselves look better. because they have no spine and are so insecure. what society do we live in now? people with no character. | | |
| i am a sell-out.  darn you, facebook. | | |
| i am in love ......... with JAMES MCAVOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I watched "becoming jane" based on the life of jane austen with anne hathaway and james macavoy. that movie was delicious! there's the most tender scene i've ever seen in a movie when james shows up in the middle of a dance. truly, the director/writer/producer orchestrated a cinematic gem. WOW. it sent chills up my spine and made me fall in love with james macavoy forever. i must buy this dvd. i want to marry him now. haha. eric bana is my #2 now. who would have thought it possible. life is hard, but it's all good. man, i had a serious meltdown this weekend. i think it was a mid-life crisis. i kept on thinking how i've wasted the last two years. i know it's not a waste, but i became so overwhelmed with work that i watched my life pass me by. it's just like that adam sandler movie where he was able to fast forward through time. i felt like i could have become like adam sandler - living as a workaholic on auto pilot and missing out on his family's life. this is truly the most valuable lesson i learned while working. don't let work become your life. man, it opened my eyes. my bro came into the room, and i was sitting there bawling, "i'm just like adam sandler in that movie......" it must have been a sight. i wish i wasn't so emotional sometimes. i have to - have to FIX my eyes on Jesus. it's easy to get overwhelmed and feel like you're being sucked up into a big black hole. we have to be anchored in Jesus. i talked to my dad all last night, and he really gave me a new perspective on my situation. sometimes you have to sacrifice things in order to reap a great reward in the end. i have to say that these two years wasn't a waste due to the fact that i found my career -- one that i love. i prayed to God for many years to find that. i wandered through so many years of school unsure about what i wanted to do. that was also painful. but, God gave me my heart's desire and led me to the field that i adore with all my heart. so i have to be grateful for that. but, at the same time, i can't become obsessed with work. but, when i think about it all, God really does answer our prayers. it takes time sometimes, but he really does answer in the best way...... | | |
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